[Continuing after the last talk a minute ago] While I have you here on the line, some private thoughts?
The Club: Sure!
You spoke to her briefly before [just a few lines earlier today]. She is fine, as is your Dad, and Heather, and Hilde. We are always fine here – but that is a judgment, right? Anyways, your mom is always with you.
I wish her a happy birthday.
She knows. Just know she is always there, and is proud of you. One thing she says, is not to be so glum. She wants you to be happy.
She always did. However, after Heather’s death a lot changed for us. The total situation has changed. If I had died before her [my mother], she would have been devastated, too.
Yes, but it’s a bit different for you, as you picked up Heather [meaning her communication]. Deep down, you know she is with you, right?
Yes. I forget sometimes.
So a reminder now.
And your mom says, you should be more aware of that.
Actually, to bring more hope to others, that “all is OK.” But if you don’t live it yourself, how can you convey it? Think about it.
OK, it’s hard. So hard for B. [my wife]. I try to help, but her pain is so deep, and it’s always there in the background, you know?
Those are the trials of your life.
All you need to know, for now, is that both of you are doing, or handling, this well.
We all send love to you.
Especially mom and Hilde.
Just bask in it for a moment.
You are not alone.
Namaste — I bow to you and the Divine in you.
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